Im not too sure if anyone still reads my sad case of a blog but i'd like to look on the bright side and say yes, people actually still do read my blog. hehe.

well, it has been pretty uneventful these days ever since O's ended. (yay for the ending of O's). i know everyone says "oh, let's party after the o's k?" but seriously, how many days can you party for? i think the maximum i can hold out for is like what.. a week? i would just die of exhaustion if i had to endure partying for more than 1 week. Besides, my pathetic wardrobe will be UNABLE to support all these outdoor activities. its not that i want to be an antisocial and not go out but sometimes, i just feel like staying at home and watching barbie, or read a good book and then fall asleep on my bed. yeah, thats what i like to do sometimes, instead of going out into the big and scary world and then getting wet in the terrible weather.

Of course my parents want me to go out and work, but i choose to be lazy and so i've been trying to digress whenever they bring up the topic (shhh). to make them proud, i did try searching for a job but its not my fault if people just dont want to hire me or they think im a primary school kid right. sheesh. so by not working, it sent my mum into another frenzy of wanting to enroll me into a mani/pedi course so that i can help her paint her nails and im actually ok with that, but then she didnt do anything about it... so im not sure what the plan is right now. :/

another plan i had was to revise my korean and hopefully be able to converse in some basic sentences like "hi, my name is daphne" or "how much is this apple?" kinda thing. well... um... its not working out so far. i tried memorising the consonants and vowels in my lesson book but the studying mood thing just left after o's ended and so i feel no motivation at all to look at books and memorise. this is bad because i'll be going to korea for 8 days during christmas and since i've taken korean lessons, i have a strong feeling my parents are going to want to count on me to be able to get around in korea... how great.

exercising was on my list of to-dos too but the weather has been terrible and so i havent exactly started on my tough regime of jogging around my estate. ok, maybe thats just me trying to make up excuses but wait till you see my estate. IT IS UPHILL ALMOST ALL THE WAY. and mind you, i dont want to get an asthma attack while running up halfway. i still have a long life to lead. I wanted to go swimming with my mum too in hope of stretching my body and growing taller too but there's nothing confirmed so far. WHICH means im stuck at home. :D

so yeah, if you can tell, my holidays have been awesome :)


we drove back in silence, thinking little about nothing in particular. i dont remember anything that was in my mind on that long ride home, but i do remember looking at the trees, wondering if the world was gonna end soon... yeah im weird like that.

i went to some leisure park thing today at kallang i think? my brother has some taekwondo thing there and my mum asked me to follow her. apparently, he's some demokid thing and they want him to demo his 'skills' to the other kiddos. so i guess he's not bad? he literally bounced into my room that day telling me that he was gonna appear on mediacorp or smth. maybe he's gonna end up on suria. HAHA. ok im damn mean. i shall repent now.

joey came to my house today too. we baked and messed up the whole kitchen. its amazing how much fun we can have when we're retarded. lol. we baked brownies with mars bars on top. honestly, it looked like cow dung. milky chocolate colour with bits inside. looked like it came from a cow that had indigestion. gross. but i guess it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. let me just say that it was....... edible. :D

sometimes, i really think i can change to fit into other people's world but then time and time again, i realise that im just not like that and i should just be myself, just be how God wants me to be. well, i had another experience just a few days ago and after that i believe wholeheartedly that i shouldn't try so hard to fit in, but just hang out with my kind of people and be true to who i am. (this makes me sound like im desperately trying hard to fit in, like such a noob... ehh.. please dont misunderstand. haha)

i want to go back to school. i miss everyone. and i know some people are gonna kill me when they read this, but i want to get more work so that i'll feel the stress and start pushing myself again. i really need stress to work and right now, honestly, im reaching almost 0 stress level and that is not good.

ok i shall reply some tags. because im bored.
faith aka jibijib: uh your blog is.. GONE so i cant tag on your blog. haha. and yes, im sure it'll be dead again. its called a cycle? duhhh.
janell: hahah it always seems pretty little whenever i write. dunno leh. :D
megan: i cant help it, sorry. HAHA.

once upon a time
once upon a night
once upon a wish
once upon a dream


fyi, im supposed to be doing my lit now, but im not. shame on me. lol. but its the holidays and its practically calling out to me and telling me to relax because holidays are meant for RELAXING and not stressing out about not finishing homework which is probably what the teachers want us to do. And yes, my parents have been telling me "just continue studying until o's, then after that you can rest all you want!" oh yeah sure. i think i'll just end up worrying too much over how i did and i know me. hmm..

today was such a wasted day. it was supposed to be 'revise geog' day today but i left at 11 plus in the morning cos we had to eat lunch first before i went for tuition at 2. then after that, it was stay out until like... 7pm? everyone knows the brain shuts down after being out for the whole day and reaching home at 7. yeah, everyone knows that. just say you do. lol. but yeah, so then i bathed and stuff and :O i did my chinese. :D and i was SO determined to do my lit. i even BROUGHT my lit book up to do it, (normally i assume im smart enough to do without the book and thats stupid cos you need all the evidence crap. haha) but i ended up doing this. what on earth are you doing, daphne? sighhh.

i feel like i have no life, practically studying everyday. mind you, today was an exception. most of the time, im cooped up in my room frantically finishing all the exam papers and revising whatever i can. just ask my bro, he knows. but of course, in between that, i take breaks. LOOOONG breaks. heck. i finished my bio and emath papers alr. :D and i revised bio, amath and emath. tomorrow shall be my geog and ss day. yes, it shall. haha

just tryin to find my way back home, the old me is dead and gone


YAY i changed my blogskin! :D got sick of that picture picture stuff. heh.
holidays have started...
wait, what holidays? I HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL ALMOST EVERY FRIGGIN DAY. whats this. its child abuse man. lol.

(monday- chinese o's) i really really hope i do well, if i dont, its the end of the world man. lol. i kid. but yeah, its an important subject to me and i hope i can excel in it. ah wells, im gonna leave it all up to God. please God, A1!

(tuesday- ss camp) seriously, have you even heard of a ss camp??? because i havent. but thankfully, i felt that it was pretty beneficial, like all the marking sessions and stuff. i guess i learnt a bit from that. the movie was ok too. a bit R rated at some parts but other than that i guess it was pretty touching?

(wednesday- FREE) yeah thats today. i spent the whole day staring at my amath tys work and this was how it went: stare at amath tys for 15 minutes. ATTEMPT some questions. cannot get the answer. give up. sleep. wake up. and the cycle continues. im serious. i slept so much, i think my brain is still sleeping now lah. wth.

(thursday- amath remedial. friday- amath remedial) im gonna die. 6 hours of amath. just kill me. who told me to not study for amath, thinking that i was smart enough to do the questions and then get an f9. i think i rock. lol.

sigh, im supposed to be doing my lit assignment thing now but i seriously do NOT know how to do it. i mean, mildred does not have an impact on the society please. she stays at home and rots! so what am i supposed to type. and mildred only has contact with THAT many people in the novel. ugh. WHY MUST WE GET MILDRED. wonder what everyone else got... hmm

oh did i mention that i have like.... communication breakdown problems with my maid? i swear she speaks some kind of ancient greek that NO ONE in my house understands. and then she complains that no one talks to her at home and im like "dude, we dont even understand what you're talking about!" she speaks like this "askfsgh gjasbg" and im like "huh" "awawdjfjasdf" "forget it. where's mummy?' lol. ok im damn mean lah. but yeah, its really like this.

talking about being mean, mic is totally obsessed with telling the whole world that im mean. thanks ah mic. lol. she thinks im mean to my bro. cos like there's gonna be an ITE built opposite my school and its gonna be done like next year i think so then i told my brother that they built it for him so that he can maybe build a bridge and walk over. my brother friggin cried lah. i was like "oops" hehhh. then he asked me like super seriously one day "fe, do you think i can get into sji?" i was like "oh yeah sure. if you study hard" ITS PERFECTLY NORMAL RIGHT?? but nooooooooooo, mic was like "YOU'RE DAMN MEAN LAH!" sigh...

my hamster does not want to sleep in the new house we bought for him. what an ungrateful little midget. one day, we're just gonna leave you out in the wild and lets see how you survive k? you better be thankful that we bother to give you food everyday and let you exercise in your little ball, you spoilt brat. sigh.

Life is a maze and love is a riddle.

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HELLO. i think im in some blogging frenzy now. i remember the first time i had a blogging frenzy was when i created this blog. then the blogging frenzy leaves and slowly the blog dies, but then it comes back again like adrenaline and im typing like crazy now. i like the sound of the keyboard under my fingers when my fingers hit it. "tat tat tat". lol cool stuff. :)

i shall start talking about infocomm on friday cos it was pretty cool. i had a fever in school and joey was ordering me to go back home but i didnt want to and she kinda got angry ( a bit i think) HEH. but i think all we did that day was stand around and discuss about which jc to go to. oh and edit our video.. but i think priyanshu did most of that. HAHA. and joey was freaking out about her cca points thing. she has 19 and she needs 1 more so that she can minus 2 from her o level raw score and she was frantically asking us if there was any way she could get that one point. lol. uh joey, i dont think its possible to get that 1 point now.. :/

then i talked to jan tan on the phone for 1 hour and 25 minutes when i got home! and to think about it, we didnt really talk about anything that was particularly important. we just crapped and that was awesome. :D we should talk soon, jan!

its been a super slack day today and im feeling super guilty about it. :/ was supposed to take this time to finish my homework and revise some stuff for mid years but i ended up sleeping like for super long, partly because i was sick but partly also because i didnt feel like doing anything. i spent too much time thinking about stuff i shouldnt have. then, i threw a temper tantrum at my mum which i regret so much because she was so understanding and nice about it and she didnt scold me.. i think she knew how i felt after listening to what i told her... or at least thats what i think..

My grandfather then brought us to eat pizza hut at lot 1! because he just received his interest from the bank or smth and was so happy about it.. lol. we ordered 2 pan pizzas, garlic bread, drumlets and 4 mango drinks. whoa. i almost died! after i ate my last piece of pizza, he asked me "you want ice cream? just eat, eat until you're full! (in chinese and in some really happy tone)" and shock crossed my face. i shook my head and clutched my stomach. thank goodness i didnt eat much for lunch cos im just gonna take that meal as my lunch and dinner for today. :D

I talked to megan for a bit via sms and she was being such a retard! she said that i've changed since sec 1.. from retarded duck to emo girl who gets chased by _______. and i said she changed from retarded laughing machine to freaky bully and dai yang tian fan. omg and fyi, its people like megan that cause those environmental problems such as global warming and such. she is so un- earth friendly!! during earth hour, her lights were fully on, her fan on full blast and she was using the computer. dont you think that the government should educate these people? i am so disappointed in you MEGAN! but she was pretty advise-y and that was cool. i mean, we were in the same class for 4 years and we're both d-ers. sucks but it has its positive side to it too cos she's changed to become someone i can really confide in and thats really cool.

OH i forgot to mention that we watched the boy in the striped pajamas during lit!! it was a nice movie but the ending was like "whaaat". HE DIED. THE BOY JUST DIED LIKE THAT. everyone thought there was gonna be some happy ending but he DIED. and i told joey about it and she teared!! LOL but yeah it was pretty sad when bruno betrayed shmuel.. AH WELLS.



WHOOOOO! IM POSTING! once in a blue moon, i post about some kind of crap and then my blog goes into hibernation whereby its literally dead. haha. but alas, spring is here and im back to post. LOL.

hmm... school has been filled with, as usual, homework and everything else that proves to bore people to sleep... ah wells. what happened to the 1 week holiday? oh right, i remember, we were going back to school and staying at home doing homework. some kind of holiday huh. oh except the occasional times when i went out with people, like when i went out with janell tan. we spent a whole lot of time sitting at taka and talking about stuff we didnt have a chance to talk about in school.. partly because we're not in the same class, but still, im pretty amazed at how we managed to remain friends after so long and i must say thanks to her for trusting me and telling me her own feelings and views about stuff. oh then she suggested walking past plaza and seeing where we ended up at but in the end, she got tired cos she said it was HOT, whaat. who's the fitter one in this scenario? lol.

um.. then there was the filming thing in school for infocomm and that was pretty fun too except i realised that my acting career is officially dead. i mean, its so hard to act as if im anorexic and angry with myself for being fat when im some kind of hyper retarded bunny in reality. i was laughing at myself in the mirror and guess what? i had about 15 takes! im a pro, seriously. :D

Got our progress report today and i must say that im not exactly very pleased with it even though everyone thinks i did ok. ms ng wants to meet my parents though and i guess i understand, considering the fact that i got 54 for bio.. yeah i think its gonna be necessary. haha. mrs heng says she's just concerned and i was like.. uh yeah ok.. i told my mum about it and she was like 'huh need to see teacher ah? ai yo, dont want lah, they're all so typical! say the same things over and over, i dont even know what to do right? i cant even teach you.. *sigh* tell your teacher i dropped out at p6 can a not? then maybe she wont ask me to teach you'... wth right? HAHA

so many things have been happening in school. some are positive things but i cannot deny that there were times when i just felt like shit and i wanted to just cut myself away from the world and just live in my own little bubble. im sick and tired of acting like i care when i dont because in actual fact, i really cannot be bothered anymore.. yes, i did say that i would make an effort to accept everyone but its not as easy as it sounds and im not so confident about it anymore. sorry. and this is not helping my studies at all. AHHHHH. i want to just disappear into the depths of the earth and never be seen again because i cant multi-task! i cant handle studies and personal life when they're both crashing towards me at the SAME time. i need help. ugh.

anyway, i decided to write this post on a lighter note, just to ease the tension within me and i think i shall... lets start from the very beginning. school today was a BORE. i had a headache which i guess is pretty normal and then there was like this speech competition thing which just sucked my life away slowly as i sat on the stupid hard chair watching the clock tick for 2 hours. i almost died there and then. ugh. why cant they realise that some stuff just doesnt relate to us?

im bored... haha i shall be nice and write something nice about my family cos my sis always says she cares so much for me but i dont for her. :O and my brother's just.. uh.. yeah.

HELLO FAITH. you're like beside me now but whatever. HAHA. thanks for putting our picture on your display pic even though i put the sunset on mine? um.. thanks for listening to my problems in the toilet and advising me about stuff. EVEN THOUGH YOU TEASE ME ABOUT STUFF LIKE SO OFTEN. then again, i tease you almost everyday too so yeah, its fair. stop being an emotional sap by watching korean dramas please. you're retarded enough. AND PLEASE START ACTING YOUR AGE. you're 19 for goodness sake! and you act like you're 9... sigh. lol

HELLO STIN. i dont know what to say to you except that im happy that your voice is breaking even though i highly doubt so. i strongly believe that all you got was a sorethroat. sorry to burst that bubble. lol, but if you think about it, you have been eating a lot of chocolate lately, so dont get so upset when that sexy husky voice disappears. for now, live in the moment and decieve yourself that you're finally becoming a man because yeah you're not. :D

this is a failed attempt but i think they get the idea. HAHA. i cant write thank you stuff for people. sorry man. my bad. haha. i shall go sleep now cos i gotta wake up super early tomorrow. cheerios!


ok, Joy insists that i blog about what happened at 'love with a cause'. i shall start from the 13th of feb. it was such a busy day, i think the busiest i have ever had for as long as i can remember. lol. so anyway, i left class at 1pm. then i had to run up and down to find my class to pass them the chem test that mrs lau passed to me. fyi, i failed, but i kinda expected it so.. whatever. i always fail chem anyway. BUT im studying my guts out, so wish me luck. haha. yeah, anyway, at first, i thought that they were at the audi so i ran there, but they weren't there. then a little birdie told me they were at LT2 and i had to run up the stupid steps just to get there and pass it to them. fyi, i was already running late cos i was supposed to leave school by 1:30 and it was already 1:35 or 1:40 already? yeahh.

joey, benita, ray wern, adorabelle, petra, jia yhin and i went to maris stella for some chinese course thing about film making because we're gonna be joining some chinese competition thing... i am officially a geek. that sucks. oh and i didnt know maris stella was a guy's school so then when i reached i was like "ey? its a guys school ah?" then everyone was looking at me like i was some sort of weirdo and joey went "uh yeah, nick??", then realisation. lol. it was, undeniably, super awkward. i mean, the students were looking at us as we walked up to the hall thingy while they were doing PUSH-UPS. anyway, the course was pretty interesting i guess, cos the guy does the filming for jack neo's films and all.

came back from maris stella at 4:30 plus? ras was already filming the dr william tan thing. it was pretty cool but we couldnt really film from that many angles cos our track is just that big and the angles you can take from are just those few... after a while, joey and i got restless and we just slacked around selling ice-cream even though we didnt sign up to. haha. our parents were going to fetch us at 11pm. so then we decided to interview dr william tan and at first miss ho said ok, but then she left and after that, ms su said cannot, so we were like "dang". lol.

went back home, slept. THE NEXT DAY, joy was gracious enough to wake up at 6am with me and we went to the roof top in school to watch and film the sun rise. by the way, the stupid clouds blocked my sun rise. ugh. then we went down to the bamboo courtyard, where joy totally abandoned me and i hung out with SOPHIA. :D she's so cute, seriously. talked to megan for a while and helped her with her homework. i dont think i helped out much, but i tried! :D yeah then i continued filming the same angle that i did practically 20 times. lol. then megan, joy and i went to play tennis, or rather, just hit the balls into nowhere. HAHAH. we suck at it. then, i went to take more retarded angles and dr william tan actually stopped and talked to me. he asked me for my number and he was like "whats your name?" i said "daphne". he said "do you think i can have those footages after this event?" "oh yeah sure. uh.. is it possible if we interview you after the event?" "oh definitely! :D" "thanks!" and he continues cycling around the track. and after that, every time i appear on the track taking my crap, he'll be there and he'll say "DAPHNE! you're still here?" and i'll be just smiling and saying "yeah... how lucky huh". ahhaha

went lunch with joy, had to go back after that though. joy is seriously a JOKE. or maybe it was just me. hahahha. we went to mad jack and we ordered cheese fries, fish and chips and a burger and we were stuffing ourselves like crazy. in the end, we still couldnt finish. how pro right? oh then joy ordered me to eat the apples, which i did cos i like apples. :D yeah but i was just about to poke it and my fork slipped off the skin. i started laughing like some mad idiot and joy attempted to ignore me. she couldnt, of course, cos i was laughing so hysterically and everyone thought i was crazy. joy finally helped me to get the apple and we washed it over the cup with ice water. haha

took the bus back to mg later with joy and we crapped all the way. i was telling joy the jokes that nick told me. muffin A and muffin B were in the oven. muffin A said to muffin B: "gee, its hot in here". guess what muffin B said?? "OMGAWD, its a talking muffin!". joy started laughing too and we were like 2 laughing machines in the bus. then joy told me a joke but it shall not be said here cos its a sensitive issue. its not racist, chill. i told her about cara's joke too: whats pink and fluffy? a pink fluff. whats green and fluffy? pink fluff holding its breath. joy thinks i should change it to blue though cos when you hold your breath, you turn blue, not green. haha. oh then joy was telling me something and she said 'all 4 of us" and it just happened there were 4 people on the seat next to us, including us, and i started laughing and laughing. hahahha, good times.

went back to school, stoned, filmed and to end the long story short, the thing ended. I TOOK PICTURES WITH MISS EUNICE OLSEN AND DR WILLIAM TAN. super cool. yeahh, joey and i went kap after that. i went home, went out for dinner, came back and died. the end. :D pictures! others are on facebook. :D